(via loveyourchaos)

i swear to fucking god. this is what i think every day.

i am wondering, im majoring in photo. why dont i have my rebel with me?

when i see fuckin blue jays right next to me.

i would take a picture of anything and everything.

*ok so this is like some chapter from the maunscript. like i think i said chapter two.*

tell me what you think
and if its confusing.




Walking.
More like pacing.
Up and down
Left and right
Back and forward
Side to side.
He can’t go to sleep because its hot.
Stifling. 
And the water on his skin making his clothes stick.
Its night. 
And all the lights are off. 
There is a bare minimum of light, but he continues to walk.
His life is running, thoughts passing through his head. 
Thinking about what is going to happen, why what has happened, happened.
With his hand on his chin, pulling on his chin hairs, he tries to relax.
He sits down and takes a time to collect his nerves
But they are scattered. He gets up to look for them again, looking for his nerves.
Then he hears a noise.
Reacting to the noise he stubs his foot.
“Shit”
“That hurt” he thought
The light cut on and then dimmed.
“Shit? Do you kiss your mom with that mouth?”
“Not now Cassandra.”
“Full names are we now, Llewellyn?” then she continued “what’s wrong?”
He resumed his walking
“Nothing….its nothing.” He knew that, that wasn’t going to drive her away.
“Really?” the time she was
He didn’t want to tell her. He didn’t want to tell anyone.
Then it started raining.
‘Is this a coincidence?’ just one more thing for him to think about.
“So what’s sup?” he cut back in to her head, like her voice was a silent sword.
“I don’t know. I don’t know what is wrong and what else will go wrong.”
“What is that supposed to mean? Are you suddenly emo?”
“No I’m not…..just thinking.”
“soo…..”
He felt a tear come down, but had to hide it. His voice was getting rough.
“So what! What else is going to fuck me with! What else is going to break me!”
“what is going to kill me.”
He didn’t mean to shout at her, He loved her.
And just like his life, he had to run away. So he did.
He ran outside to the drenching cold.
“but its raining…….” She said quietly then followed
She walked up to him and went for his hand
He pulled away. The water made his hand slip, so he used it to pull away.
“what is wrong with you!”
She was now starting to shout, but it was getting drowned out by the rain on the pavement.
“What the hell wrong with you?”
She picked his hand up and held it with tightness so that he couldn’t slip away, at least again.
“You have a lot to live for, you have me.”
The rain on his face blended with his tears.
He leaned over and hugged her, but still slipped a little.
“What is wrong with you? What came up?” she was waiting for a reply
“Or fallen down” he added with a smirk
“I’m just thinking…thinking about what I will do…what I have done…everything.”
With her head on his shoulder, he braced himself again her and she leaned against for a soft resistance.
His breathing got cold, well his breath did. It was a chilly night.
“Well don’t forget that I’m here with you a thought on my mind. I am thinking too.”
And with that he looked her in her eyes. He leaned in for a kiss and stopped 80%
“Feels like we are in a movie, don’t it?…like a cliché chick flick?”
And she came the other 20% just to shut him up

yea yea so i think i can write. this is for a friend.

She was crouchched down. Now failing at running away. She had to breath, and let her legs rest. She couldn’t rest to another day, she just wanted to be erased. She took out her id and the name cassandra flashed back at her. She cried while looking through her wallet, as if it defined who she was. A you girl represented by the pink leather and the faded plastic jewels. A couple of number fell out, but just some boys trying to “score”. But his name was on the sidewalk on white, and between red. She read “Llewellyn” on this lined sheet of paper along with a number. “should I call him?” she planned her next move. “where else could I go?” cassandra kept her cool even though what all went on. She picked up her phone and dialed his number. 
“hello?” the phone was playing with her, it was still ringing. 
“h-hello?”
“yes, hey.
“do you know what time it is?”
She thought about hanging up
“….well you woke me up, so what is it?” Lew sounded kind of angered.
“this is cassie. Im sorry for…”
“CASSANDRA?”
“you seem a bit confused”
“where are you at?”
“well right now im infront of your house.” Cassie has been to lew’s house a couple of times. Mostly for parties.
“Well let me come let you in. Come to my window.”
Cassie took her shoes off. Her soles were on fire. She kicked the grass, as the dew resting upon the lawn soothed her feet. 
“CASSIE” lew yelled to get her attenchion. “Hey cassie! C’mon”
Lew opened a window for cassie to get in. cassie hopped in and banged her knee. She thought “nothing compared to tonight.” She was talking about the pain. Cassie layed on a bean bag chair sort of bed and sighed.
“so whats up? What are you doing at this time of night…..out front of my house”
“well…..” lew cut cassie off. She looked overwhelemed
“you have to tell me, after all you did wake me up. And im giving you a place to stay.” Lew was only joking. “well whenever you want to talk….” He rolled over into his pillow. Cassie sat and looked at lew. She saw a different, caring lew. Or she wasn’t paying attenchion before.
“has somethings changed with lew?” this left cassie thinking her way in and out of sleep.

madteaparty:

me and mah cuzzz

well you my dear have some pretty eyes.

(via loveyourchaos)

everytime i see a picture with someone with a cig, it makes me think..

what im trying to say is its not appealing to smoke.

but to be smoking in a picture? thats appealing to me.

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this is like truth to me.

(via ali-sin)

this chick is pretty tumblr famous

to write love on her arms
is for her to slit her wrist.
carving in the letters associated with bliss
l…for her lonley nights
O for the only one who is left
V is for the very last time she has been hurt
E is enough.
enough of the lonely nights
too much of the pain
over for the last time
he vowed never to do it again
but he did
he did the same shit
she quit. gave up with this
this…is this the bliss?

jimmywhacked:

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